I have officially started packing! Woohoo!! But this brings with it a sinking, sickening feeling which I can’t seem to get rid of. I was awake for hours last night just not able to fall asleep. Then when I did, I had really frantic dreams about forgetting things and running crazily around trying to get everything in time! Not good! I woke up feeling I actually had been doing all that! It’s so frustrating, because I know God doesn’t give fear, so I know this isn’t from him, and is therefore a ploy to pull me away from God. So right now, I’m asking for strength to get over this terror of going and this fear that God will just abandon me. Sounds so stupid… But believe me, it’s a scary thought.

So, does anyone have any ideas as to how to get my excitement and conviction back? I seem to have mislayed it at the moment!